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Nicole Kidman‘s eyes are wide open.
Indeed, the Practical Magic actress—who finalized her divorce from Keith Urban earlier this year—recently reflected on her split from the “Somebody Like You” singer after 19 years of marriage. And even though she went through another high-profile breakup in 2001 from ex Tom Cruise, Kidman admits the experience the second time around doesn’t make it any easier.
“It’s all new,” she told British Vogue when asked about the two in an interview published Aug. 13, noting, “Every time!”
In fact, Kidman—who shares kids Isabella, 33, and Connor, 31, with the Top Gun star—became accustomed to the spotlight rather quickly when she and Cruise got married in 1990.
“Strangely enough, I feel comfortable. Is that weird? That’s so weird,” she explained of being able to turn on her persona in the spotlight. “But you have to remember literally, because of who I married at such a young age, I was thrust into it since I was 22.”
It’s a period of time that she recalls vividly.
“I got married so young,” Kidman told the outlet. “Suddenly I was 22, 23 years old and I had this huge movie star husband. But it just seemed completely natural. We just fell madly in love and it was that simple.”
And that simplicity carried over to the Eyes Wide Shut actress deciding to tie the knot with no regrets.
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“I remember people saying to me, ‘OK, well this is really going to affect your career,'” she recalled. “I’m like, ‘I don’t care. I’m in love. I want to be married.’ And then I was his ‘wife’ and they were like, ‘See, we told you.’ I’m like, ‘So what? I wasn’t meant to marry the man I love? Of course I’ll throw my career away. I don’t care.’”
Fast-forward more than two decades later and Kidman—who recently sparked romance rumors with businessman Michael Reinstein—is simply focused on just going with it and looking ahead.
“I can still approach things intellectually,” she explained, “but my desire is not to be ruled by my head. I’ve always wanted to live a well-examined life, so what does that entail? Trying things, making mistakes, failing, getting back up, moving on, embracing love, staying open, keeping the heart open and the possibilities.”
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But that doesn’t mean she isn’t processing what she feels.
“At the same time I’m like, ‘OK, I didn’t expect this,'” Kidman—who also shares daughters Sunday, 18, and Faith, 15—with Urban explained. “I had a different view of what my life was going to be, but this is what it is now.’ You make all these plans and you have all these ideas of what it’s all going to be like and then it’s… not. You have to adjust. You adapt. The future, it’s completely unknown to me right now.”
That said, there’s magic in the air when it comes to her future regardless.
“There was a point where I was very fearful and deeply vulnerable,” she noted, “which is exposing. And then at the same time [I’m] going, “Well, I can either really not confront it and just curl up, or I can just go forward with an enormous amount of hope.”
Keep reading for a deeper look back at Kidman and Urban’s relationship before their split…
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